OK folks!! Here goes. I have finally see my mistakes and how it hurt me most of the time!!! I just feel like I wanna find back the real me. I mean- THE REAL LOVING ME!!!!! Like the song 'Amazing Grace', I once was lost but now I'm found, was blind but now I see. Yep, I see all my darkness! All I want now is just forgiveness and a chance to prove myself that I still do love you all!!!! I really mean it!!! Please give me a chance to prove that I do. I WANNA HEAL, FEEL AND FIND A PLACE I REALLY BELONG!!!!

This song does comes from the bottom of me heart!!!!

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(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all to find
That I am not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That's it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what I am)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way everybody is looking at me'
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I WILL NEVER KNEW MYSELF UNTIL I DO THIS ON MY OWN
AND I WILL NEVER FEEL ANYTHING ELSE UNTIL MY WOUNDS ARE HEALED
I WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING TILL I BREAK AWAY FROM ME
I WILL BREAK AWAY, I'LL FIND MYSELF TODAY

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I WANNA HEAL, I WANNA FEEL LIKE I'M SOMEWHERE I BELONG!!!!!!!
I WANNA HEAL, I WANNA FEEL LIKE I'M SOMEWHERE I BELONG!!!!!!!
SOMEWHERE I BELONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!