The Christmas Decorations are bak!!!!

Hohoho!!!! You all must be wondering what's wrong with Mary today! Actually, it's nothing. Just now, I went to JJ to buy some cakes for tomorrow's camp. As I was on my way to the bread shop, I saw the Christmas Banners are up!!! Yup!!!! The Christmas Decors are back!!!! Of course they haven't put up those tiny little Christmas trees and lightnings yet because it is still too early for it. In my heart, I was triumph! Finally, the season that I love is here!!!!

Christmas for me is a season of warmth and love. A time where friends and family members gather around at home and enjoy each other's presence. I love Christmas because of the coziness if gives me. Despite of being how busy I am during this season, i still love it!!! I love the Christmas trees, lights, carols, food and also the cheer!!

I still remember when i was a small kid, i used to wait until Advent. For catholics, Advent signifies the start of Christmas season, means we have to prepare ourselves for the birth of Jesus. When Advent arrives, I will start to play my favourite carols and sing along with it as me and my siblings will decorate the Christmas tree. My house Christmas tree isn't like any of those trees you see in the mall. It's quite antic. Moreover, it looks very real! We have to categorize the branches according to its size. Then, my brother will set up the base of the tree, Angeline and me will start to poke the branches to the main stick. Slowly as the 'cone' shape of the tree evolves, we start to hang Christmas decorations around it! You see, that's the nicest part of it. I will put on carols while working on the tree. So all of us will be sing along while our hands are busy hanging, passing and admiring our tree!

Christmas is also a time when my mum shows the artistic side of her! My mum is a good painter. She can self create a Christmas crib by using newspapers! Normally, she will ask me and my siblings to paint up some newspapers using colours of brown, green, yellow and red or orange. When you mixed the colours up, it will turn into a some sort of a ground colour. After that, my mum will start to crumple it up and then piece by piece she will slowly paste them by using gum and celephone tape, on to the base of the crib. Her finishing touch will be the arranging of the statues of baby Jesus, Mother Mary, Joseph, 3 Wise Men, Shepherds and their sheeps and the Angel.

As both the tree and crib is done, my dad will take his fair share of work by hanging up the Christmas lights! Team work is very important! That's why I love Christmas! Imagine the things that my family don't get to do during our normal times but we come together for Christmas! Every time when all of these are done, I will just sit down alone at my couch, turned off the lights and watch the lights blinking from my Christmas tree. Then, in my heart I will thank God for being to generous to me by showering me with a wonderful family, a place to live and also the opportunity to celebrate this season of sharing and love! I mean, this is what Christmas is all about! Sharing your love with one another!!!!!

Sometimes, even though i do go around singing carols with my youths. I still feel that Christmas is about spending time with your love ones, especially with your family. I love the feeling of opening my presents during the Christmas evening beside my Christmas tree with my siblings. Then our parents will come and helped us out with the gifts! Isn't that warm? Even now, whenever I see Christmas decorations are up, I know that Christmas is near. Even more than that, I also know that the peak of my year (as in busyness with church works eg. caroling, Xmas play, Christmas mass practise...) is coming towards me. Most importantly, I can feel it in my bones that the feeling of warmth and love in my family, is coming........and I am waiting for it~~

My nails~*

The Taiwan Drama Series i was watching while waiting for my nails to dry

My nail art!

Hi!!! I've uploaded some pics of my nail art! Actually it's nt really a nail art cz the patterns are stickers! I bought them from 'Shins', JJ last Sun after my lunch with Rachel.

My urge to do my nails started from a few days ago right after i've bought these nail stickers. However, i didn't have the time to do. Then, I've got some spare time today, so i've decided to experiment it! I started to do my toes 1st with my silvery pink nail polish. It didn't took me very long because i'm using my right hand to coat it. Therefore, it isn't that hard. It was like painting on my toes that's all!!!

After doing my toes, i switched to my nails. I started from my left hand 1st so that i can use my right hand to paint. Firstly, i covered it with a base coat 1st, then repeat the procedure with my right hand. Normally, my right hand painting won't be that smooth because i will be using my left hand to paint. So, sometimes i can tell out the differences between my two hands! Finishing the base coat, i painted the black colour polish, then switched it to my right hand (so that my left hand can get some time to dry), and then a second round to make the colour more rich. While waiting for my nail polish to dry, i watched a Taiwan Drama Series. Half way through, I started to paste the stickers onto my nails. Hehe :P Talking about my art, i really didn't know how to paste it to create the kind of 'elegant' effect like one of my fren did. I juz pasted it wherever i feel please! :P Finally, I cover it with a shining coat so to make the whole manicure thingy last longer and more shining! Oh ya! Don't forget to use a tiny wooden stick (ya-qian in Chinese), to scrap out the nail polish that you accidentally painted in on your finger tips! If you don't do tat, it will stay there for a long time, then it will spoil the whole picture of your nail art!!

However, there are alwiz some things which i sure to mess a little of my nails. Example, while turning my door knob, i will accidentally terkena my nails, then my nails will have to go for another repairing/ re-work! Doing nails is indeed fun when you look at ur piece of art, bt the you spend it really taxing and tiring sometimes. I've been once that i did my nails for a few times and in the end gave up totally because it was getting into my nerves! That's y i seldom do my nails!

For the girls out there, unless you really have nothing to do, only go n play with ur nails! Busy ppl like me can only do it like once in a 1 months!

So, that's the story of 'Mary with her nails'!!!

Another week~

I went out with Rachel for lunch today at Windmills, JJ. It's like the 1st time i meet her alone for lunch after my havoc week of falling sick and resting. We talked about stuffs like wat we did during our holiday(which for me is juz laying down and eat!!). She has become a pro in the 'Word Challenge' game in FB!! C'mon, she beat Satya!!!! (Bt then l8r i went n check, Mich has become the new champion...wat kind of brains they hav!)

At nite, i went to church to coach my casts for Xmas Play. This time, more team members joined me for the practise. They hav provided me with good ideas and now the acting is finally on track! I'm glad that tis Tues we r goin to proceed to the next 4 scenes.

Actually, i'm really not good in leading ppl in acting. You should hav seen how my advisor taught them they way to act! Even the slightest movement he can oso capture and act out naturally! Sometimes, i really respect him for his talents! However, i hav a very talented young actor in my cast to act this yr! He is only std5 this yr and has impressed me deeply by his acting skills! Juz by looking into his eyes and his expression...u can really be touched by him!!! He is juz purely GOOD AND TALENTED!!!!

The whole prac went quite well with all the stopping and continuing the lines of the actors and actresses. I think they now hav an image of wat they should act.

It's been 1 week d. Last week at tis time, i was still in the hospital taking nebulyzer. I really thanked God that now i hav fully recovered from my flu and my asthma. Though it takes months to fully recover from an asthma (as in food and drinks), i still do thank God for making me well again! Well, at least now i can breath properly and my hands don't tremble anymore! Now, all i can do is juzt wait for my energy to come bak. I can't wait to jump into the water and swim!!! The last time i went was like few weeks b4 finals! Now, i'm so FAT that i can't wait fo my body to get well so that i can start my diet project! Bt then...i think i will juz hav to put it on hold 1st! Hehe :P

Kla, i really wanna zzz d....i'm so tired! This is my 1st time staying up so late after my major attack! Nitez whoever u r!!! Sweet dreams~*

HSM3!!!

We were trying to stare at something~*lolx!!

These r my precious frens from CFM!! Tis pic was taken after our makan in Old Town!

It was the 28th of Nov. After all these while of resting i feel tat i am now ok enough to go out with my frens to watch a movie. We've decided to watch HSM3 at GSC, Carrefour.

I reached there at around 2.30pm and went to McD to find them. Unfortunately, they weren't there so i had to walk all the way to GSC...(nt to mention my phone has no credit at tat time!!) When i found them at the ticket counter, i was actually very weak cz i had not enough energy to walk tat far. Luckily my frens were understanding enough, they went to Carrefour there to let me find a place to sit down and rest. Talking about them, they are Alex, Cherlyn, Veron, Sebas, Carol, Avan and Gabriel. As for me, i'm de eldest of all!!! Haha :P

They bought for me a students' ticket which is the cheapest so far after i've left sch! Only RM6!! Our cineplax is Num1. Our seats were at the middle facing the screen. Man, it was right in front of our eyes. So nice!!!!

My comments about HSM3 is ntg much. Juz usual, a teenage movie with lots ant lots of music and love scenes. Gabriella is alwiz the fav of mine because she's so pretty!!! Troy is good looking, bt somehow i don really feel so. I mean i admit he is good looking bt i don feel so. No offense, bt tat's wat i feel. Then, the plot was predictable. The songs were...erm not bad! Some were nt so nice, some were nice and some were super nice!! My all time fav was the dancing scene and the song Gabriella and Troy sung. That scene was also very memorable~

My frens were having the time of their life watching as they are still teenagers. Well, this is like 'their show', of course they will enjoy 100% of it! As for me, i was juz lazying around and enjoying the show. By the end of it, i actually had a tinge of sadness because the show is now finally ended. No more HSM to look forward to, and no more comparing between movies...hmm...i think i will miss the characters the most!

After the show, i was a bit hungry. So we all went to Old Town to have a bite! Me and Alex ordered French Toast, Sebas ordered noodles, Avan ordered Nasi Lemak while Veron ordered Ham Polo Bread. Poor me cannot drink any cold drinks so i ordered a cup of hot honey lime juice. Mmmm, nice!!!! Before we departed, we took a few nice pics as a remembrance. Our next movie will be 'Quantum of Solace'. I really can't wait for the next movie outing!!! These little ones are really fun to be with!!! Haha :P

PS: I think i'm allergic to peanut butter...cz after taking the French Toast, i had to take my medication again...sighs~

如何会嬴？？How to win???

People alwiz like to win! I admit, i am one of them! I like to win!! I like the feeling of winning somebody from a competition, exam or even in an argument! The feeling of winning is incompatible!! Nobody and understand other than yourself!!! Imagine that you can have all the ppl looking up at u and knowing that wat u say really does make sense!!! And the look at their faces when they realized how wrong they were!!! Wahaha (evil laugh...)

However, winning isn't everything. I've learned from my experience that winning sometimes isn't that good at all. In my pass, i used to hate those ppl whom overpass me. I treated them as my enemies and had this kind of a 'scary' look when they come near to me. I refused to share tips with them fearing that they will overtake me in my exams. I oso will keep a close track with my fren's grades. If let's say they get better than mine, den i will go super depress for a whole day. Then, i will plot up a plan on how to overtake them by the end of the semester. My life was basically very 'kiasu' and 'kiasi'. (note: i'm nt a Singaporean!)

Due to those days, i am now oso a bit 'kiasu' and 'kiasi' in my daily lives. Little as it seems bt it still bothers me a lot. I cannot look into the person's eyes whenever they overturned me. These r the post-kiasu/si symthomps that i'm suppose to deal with right now.

My high school fren used to say that 'kiasu' isn't wrong. It helps u to be more competitive and alwiz push yourself to the limits. Now, i hav my own way of defining. Being 'kiasu' until a reasonable level is ok. Example, i am still quite 'kiasu' in my studies. My reason now isn't to win over my frens bt to make sure that i achieve the standards that i've set for myself. Then, being overly 'kiasu' will only bring me endless of pain and suffering, nt to mention lesser friends and ur brain is alwiz being blocked or narrowed!

That's y, i am here to share with u all this article i've found in 'Nanyang Newspaper'. It's about 'How to win?' They din boast saying that winning is so great that we should be proud of it! Instead, they stressed on humbling oneself 1st then working your way up to success!!! So here goes...

嬴第一个字“亡”：

亡代表要有危机意识， 我们必须要随时了解我们所处的环境变化，过去成功的经验往往是未来失败最大的原因，安逸的日子久了，我们会越来越丧失斗志，有一个敌人或竞争者的好处是， 它至少不会让你便闷。

亡也可以表示'无' 的意思，要学习让自己归零，对很多人，事，物不要有主观的成见，能多方了解彼此的需求。亡也可以很单纯是死亡或结束之意，虽是结束，但生命的周期是无限开展的，它更象证了机会与无限的生命力。

第二个字是“口”：

口代表沟通，必须把你的想法告诉所属，要在不同的场合中宣示要达成的目标与决心。成功的沟通是双向的，除了有良好的言语表达能力之外，也要有倾听的能力。听得清楚，有助于彼此了解的需求，更有助于自己陈述论点。

第三个字是“月”：

月指的是时间，任何嬴都要时间的累积，需要在岁月上下功夫，泡沫式的英雄作风最后总如昙花一现般地消失无终。棒球投手要有很严格的训练，他无法从书本中得到嬴球的技巧，必须在一次一次的比赛中掌握自己的优势，训练自己的胆识与应变能力。

月也代表亲身的实践，代表你无法自用命令方式，让别人来助你成功，而是要以身作则，以德服人，那时就一般，闪亮耀人。

第四个字是“贝”：

有钱就一定会嬴吗？这也未必，有的人虽然没有钱不过有技术，智慧财产权，商标专利，人际关系，跨国性公司的经理经验。。。。。。等，这些可能都是无形的财产。

因此，“贝” 应是筹码，是可以为自己加分的要素，它可能就是一个人的独特性，而要任何增加自己的筹码呢？在知识的÷经济的时代÷里，随时增加自己的知识，保持学习的态度，就是最好的扎根方法。

第五个字是“凡”：

凡指的是平常心，我们努力去争取胜利，但是最后的成绩，往往不一定尽如天意。

中国人说：“赛翁失马，焉知非福。”在每个失败中都含有成功的因子，我相信从失败中学到的东西，要比从成功中学到的东西多得多。

“嬴” 字可以拆成“亡”，“口”，“月”，“贝”，“凡” 5 个字，将这5个字引申为5个赢家所备的态度。

That's y i hate meetings!!!

I just came back from a meeting juz now. It did really pissed me off a little! Sometimes i really looked forward for meetings cz i get to joke around with my friends bt sometimes i juz hated the way it goes! It started from nice and ended up badly (for me...)

Well, i was suggesting some ideas for the comin event. I was quite hoping that they will accept my idea cz it has been ages since the previous one. However, after a long explanation from my advisor, i've decided to change it to Gifts Exchange. Suddenly, they came up with the idea of having ppl being left out in the process!!! I really donno wat to say about tis. I knew it was comin!!! It has been like this all these while!!! Everytime I say something which i think will benefit the whole group they will think that i am juz crapping around trying to show off!! Then, they will cme out with reasons to shut my idea off and make me feel so left out!!!! I hate the way they treated me!!!!!! Imagine all ur ideas being shut-off all the time!!! Then, they will come out with their 'brand-new' ideas to cover mine making me so ridiculously stupid!!!! After that, they will explain how their ideas will benefit the whole group and we SHOULD ACCEPT IT!!!! KKLA!!! WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?! BAN UR IDEAS MEH?! DEN WHEN I SAY SOMETHING THAT CONTRADICTS UR IDEAS U WILL SAY THAT I AM NOT THINKING WITH THE GROUP!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL BECAUSE U R DE BOSS RITE??? DEN I AM JUZ A STUPID BASTARD TRYING TO CREATE TROUBLE??? WTF WTF!!!!!!

Sometimes i am really fed up with these ppl. They want you to support their ideas no matter how and when u really need them to support ur ideas they will juz ignore u totally!!!! Then during yum char time can tell me saying that whenever you did anything wrong i can juz say if out, bt i know tat won't mean anything 2u!!! When tat happens, it has alredi been done and you still won't be held responsible!!! As for me!!! I'm alwiz the one having to be blame for all those ridiculous ideas!!! For not paying attention during meetings, my heart is not with u all, i'm trying to divide the team,etc... PLS LA!!!!! DO U THINK I AM SUCH A BITCH?!

Juz now the idea wasn't that bad, it's juz tat...i wanted to say that i am fed-up of doin gifts for ppl bcz i don hav much time!!! IT'S THE EXAM WEEK BY THEN!!! I CANNOT STAY UP WITH U GUYS SO LATE UNTIL WEE HOURS TO D GIFTS JUZ BCZ U GUYS GET THE PRIVILEGE TO DO SO!!! I am so tired of talking to u all sometimes...i know my ideas will sure to be shut even if it is solid good! U will alwiz think tat urs is the best...and we all will sure to support u...well my fren, i can say that u did a good job!! I do support ur ideas, bt sometimes with a reluctant heart!!!! I hate ur ideas bt somehow i was forced to accept it!!! Then when i make mistakes i was forced to accept the fact that I SUCKED!!!! IS THAT WAT U WANT?!

Sometimes during affirmation i wasn't even paying any attention in wat u r talking about me cz i don even like de way u talk!!!! Even when i say good things about u, i don mean it from my heart!!!! Can u pls juz for once prove to me that i am useful to the team and i am not juz a stupid ass sitting there and count money??? I know u all think that i am multi tasked bt do u like it if i oso treat u the way u all alwiz treated me??? I'm trying to contribute here!!! Bt u all....u all juz shut me out again and again....and God knows how many more i can handle...pls frens, don make me one day that i don even like the sound of urs...

I was really fed-up with u all in the meeting juz now...and for the moment....I HATE U!!!!!

I'm sick... :*(

Dear diary,
I know, i know...it's been few days since i've blogged...what can can i do??? I was sick!!! Due to the sudden chance of weather in Malacca (a sudden heat and a few days of chilling rain), i was officially declared bed sick!!! It started with a fever and a bit of a flu. Then, it somehow brought back my cough and then...asthma!!! I get my last attack when I was 18!!! It has been almost 2 and a half years from that time!!!

I got my attack on Sunday nite. I was back from my Play Prac and was considering if i should go to the hospital for a nebulyzer. Since my last attack was so many years back, i consider that my body is well enough to pull through this. So i did my daily b4 bed routine by brushing my teeth, washed my face and then drank a cup of hot milk and ate some bread. After that, i decided to lay at my mum's bed for a while. Using my past experience, whenever i get an attack i won't be able to sleep well on the bed because i will get distracted by those loud 'wheezing' sounds coming out from my lungs whenever i draw breaths. My nightmare has happened, i really COULDN'T SLEEP!!!

So, i got up from the bed and asked both of my parents to check if i am really on asthma attack. Both of them said 'YES!! And you need to be sent to the hospital right away!!!'. 'Oh damn!!!' was all that i can thought of at the moment. Sighs~i went to change my clothes whilst my dad went to take my health report. It was a piece of a yellow card which recorded all my past asthma attacks and all its details. They say that whenever i present them with this card i can get immediate medical attention!!! That's the wonder of this yellow card!!! Not many ppl can have it u know!

It was around 12.20am when my dad dropped me in the hospital. My department is the one and only famost-Emergency aka ICU!!! The doors were closed but when the guard at the door saw me with my magic pass (my yellow card), they immediately opened the door 4 me!!! Then, i was surprised that they immediately gave me nebulyzer!! In the past i had to be examined and confirmed by a doc 1st b4 they will let me have any of them!!! Well, i was impressed by the way they attended to me. However, i was shocked by the scene when i reached the room. There were so many young children with the age of 4-5 yrs old and a few uncles! They were having breathing problems as well!!! Compared to mine ( i could still talked properly), it was considered mild...

I was given nebulyzer...den all i could think is to breath in and out properly so that the medicine can take effect on me. So, i thought of how i normally breath when i am swimming. Open my mouth to take in ample of air and breath out through my nose! So, i was actually imagining myself in MbMb swimming while i can actually taking my nebulyzer!!! Funny eh?! My friend Adrienne sms-ed me when i was half way through. She was glad that i am now under treatment. Then, there were these Malay uncle. He couldn't breath properly and was having a hard time. So, the paramedic gave him a pulse check. My goodness! His pulse was racing and they had to wad him!! Later, a young Malay girl came in with a wheelchair. She was so sick until she couldn't even talked other than frowning (she was suffocating)!!! Half way through, she went limp for a while because of the medicine!!! Luckily she din passed out! As for me, i was having shaky hands and my mind was swirling due to the medicine. I looked at them and just pitied them. What else can i do??? There were kids around me vomiting after their nebulyzer (i used to be like that too, cz ur pipeline is being enlarged back, so too much air in ur lungs can cause u this feeling of swirling and vomiting), and all i could do was juz looked at them with helpless eyes...

I sat at the chair for like 40mins after my nebulyzer (it's the rules) and replied A's sms. Then, i juz took a nap while waiting for my doc's call. Luckily, i passed through my 1st nebulyzer and was allowed to go home!!! Yahoo!!! Do you know how tiring it could be if i were to go for a 2nd round?? Not only another round of nebulyzer for like 40mins and another round of waiting!!! So, I really thanked God for helping me pass!

At the pharmacy counter, the chinese officer gave me my usual Sulbotamol, a packet of while tablets inside, and Erythromycin. The 1st one is my usual asthma medicine, the 2nd one is for i donno wat oso, bt he said i only hav to take it once and 6 tablets at once!!!! The last one is for de-toxin.

I went home at around 2.30am, and had a bread and a cup of hot milk then ate up all my medicine! I couldn't really sleep at night cz the medicine is so heaty and my room wasn't really air-coned!! Still, was grateful that i was alive and could breath properly again!

My past few days of post-asthma attack wasn't as nice as i thought. My hands trembled like mad, my head was heavy, drowsy and i was very thirsty all the time!! I din know what to do, so i juz lied down on the bed and tried to catch some sleep. However, the hot weather wasn't any good in helping me to sleep at all!

Last nite, I finally get my nicest sleep!!! I sure hope that I can get well soon. According to my knowledge, an attack like this will take months to recover and months of no cold food or even drinks!!! So, bye bye to my cray life and all those nice foods~~

Hi!

Dear diary (or should I say blog?),
It's been ages since I ever started to write something here. Let's see, 2007?? I think it's more than a yr! I have to admit that i am a very busy and lazy person!!! I don like to pour out my thoughts and let ppl read. So, my blog won't be that personal. Juz some happy moments I spent with my loved ones. As for those emotional moments, let's forget it and let me and myself indulge in it k!
2day is a very peaceful day. I woke up and did some PnW discussion with a fren. Den after tat, I juz lazied at home and played cards with my siblings. I guess the weather juz make ppl wanna snooze. Later tonight, I'll be practising "Magnificat"!!! Juz in case for those who donno, 'Magnificat' is a very hard choir song my church youth sung during our Christmas Play last yr. It was a hard song to learn! I thought after our last performance last yr we won't be able to sing it anymore! When Jasmine sms-ed me last week saying that our priest is requesting us to sing this song again, my heart leaped a hundred folds!!!! Suddenly all my holiday plans of lepaking at The Jetty, Pure, Mbmb...all went away!!! I juz want to practise this song!!!! It's like, suddenly all my senses r bak!!! I'm ready to go through those days of practising very hard with my groupmates!!!! Until we all can sing the best!!!! Oh my!!!! I can't believe that I'll be singing this song 2nite!!! I sure hope that we can perform well this Nov!
I pray that the Lord will bless us! Cz without Him, we cannot give our best!!! We prayed a lot for it last yr!