I just came back from a meeting juz now. It did really pissed me off a little! Sometimes i really looked forward for meetings cz i get to joke around with my friends bt sometimes i juz hated the way it goes! It started from nice and ended up badly (for me...)

Well, i was suggesting some ideas for the comin event. I was quite hoping that they will accept my idea cz it has been ages since the previous one. However, after a long explanation from my advisor, i've decided to change it to Gifts Exchange. Suddenly, they came up with the idea of having ppl being left out in the process!!! I really donno wat to say about tis. I knew it was comin!!! It has been like this all these while!!! Everytime I say something which i think will benefit the whole group they will think that i am juz crapping around trying to show off!! Then, they will cme out with reasons to shut my idea off and make me feel so left out!!!! I hate the way they treated me!!!!!! Imagine all ur ideas being shut-off all the time!!! Then, they will come out with their 'brand-new' ideas to cover mine making me so ridiculously stupid!!!! After that, they will explain how their ideas will benefit the whole group and we SHOULD ACCEPT IT!!!! KKLA!!! WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?! BAN UR IDEAS MEH?! DEN WHEN I SAY SOMETHING THAT CONTRADICTS UR IDEAS U WILL SAY THAT I AM NOT THINKING WITH THE GROUP!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL BECAUSE U R DE BOSS RITE??? DEN I AM JUZ A STUPID BASTARD TRYING TO CREATE TROUBLE??? WTF WTF!!!!!!

Sometimes i am really fed up with these ppl. They want you to support their ideas no matter how and when u really need them to support ur ideas they will juz ignore u totally!!!! Then during yum char time can tell me saying that whenever you did anything wrong i can juz say if out, bt i know tat won't mean anything 2u!!! When tat happens, it has alredi been done and you still won't be held responsible!!! As for me!!! I'm alwiz the one having to be blame for all those ridiculous ideas!!! For not paying attention during meetings, my heart is not with u all, i'm trying to divide the team,etc... PLS LA!!!!! DO U THINK I AM SUCH A BITCH?!

Juz now the idea wasn't that bad, it's juz tat...i wanted to say that i am fed-up of doin gifts for ppl bcz i don hav much time!!! IT'S THE EXAM WEEK BY THEN!!! I CANNOT STAY UP WITH U GUYS SO LATE UNTIL WEE HOURS TO D GIFTS JUZ BCZ U GUYS GET THE PRIVILEGE TO DO SO!!! I am so tired of talking to u all sometimes...i know my ideas will sure to be shut even if it is solid good! U will alwiz think tat urs is the best...and we all will sure to support u...well my fren, i can say that u did a good job!! I do support ur ideas, bt sometimes with a reluctant heart!!!! I hate ur ideas bt somehow i was forced to accept it!!! Then when i make mistakes i was forced to accept the fact that I SUCKED!!!! IS THAT WAT U WANT?!

Sometimes during affirmation i wasn't even paying any attention in wat u r talking about me cz i don even like de way u talk!!!! Even when i say good things about u, i don mean it from my heart!!!! Can u pls juz for once prove to me that i am useful to the team and i am not juz a stupid ass sitting there and count money??? I know u all think that i am multi tasked bt do u like it if i oso treat u the way u all alwiz treated me??? I'm trying to contribute here!!! Bt u all....u all juz shut me out again and again....and God knows how many more i can handle...pls frens, don make me one day that i don even like the sound of urs...

I was really fed-up with u all in the meeting juz now...and for the moment....I HATE U!!!!!