Sighs...

I am very worried about my midterm now. There's a major event this Saturday night and I'm in charge of its performances. Plus, I have to take part in some of the programs as well!

Oh God...I am really stressed out right now as I am typing this passage. I really don't know that should I do! I didn't foresee these things piling up when I signed up for it! I really don't!!!! So many things came up so last minute!!!! Even my lecturers are the same! They gave us our midterm notice and coverage today itself and the exam is 1 week away!!!! Do they think that everyone is that smart!!!!

I'm just an average student trying to survive my final semester. Now with this event on the weekend, I don't even have time to really sit down and study! Here my mum is pestering me to study and there my team mates are pressuring to add more practices!!!! I have been stretched to my limit already!!!!! I cannot let both sides down!!!! What can I do???? Both sides I can't just merely PASSED~ No way!!!!! What can I do now????

Both things are so rushing....so packed.....so messy and so last minute!!!!!! It's like these both aren't meant to be matched side by side! All pieces are not properly fit into place....what can I do???? My team mates do sense it, but we are just too ignorant to face it! There and then we have miscommunication! Everyone isn't happy of everyone...there isn't any team spirit....All of us are tired with our daily struggles and this adds up to our burden.

Sighs...what can I and We do Lord???? I, for my side has so many things to study up at such a limited time. We on the other hand, have also so little time to make things a success...can we please everyone? No... Can we be committed and our heart beat as one? Not really... Are we communicating? Not really too.... Then who is to blame? Our own selfishness and ignorance!

Surely You would know Lord. I'm at the edge of giving up! This time, I really cannot handle everything on my own. I need to share some with You. Help me Oh Lord....I'm really tired, stressed and angry!

My sad sad CNY...

CNY this year means no chance to enjoy my favourite food...because I had an asthma attack almost one week ago. I went to the General Hospital for nebulyzer and then she gave me steroids, cough syrup and flu pills to eat. The steroids were the most important medicine of all, because I had to take 6 pills for 5 days! The whole process was agonizing because each medicine has a different consuming time and my lips were cracking due to the medicine!

My agonizing steroids med came to an end on the eve of CNY! I thought that it was the end of my medication period, but it was just the start for another....THE SIDE EFFECTS! 5 days and 30 steroid pills were starting to show symtomps in my body. At first, I thought because I was consuming so much water that I felt like vomiting and my stomach felt weird. On the 2nd day of CNY before lunch, I throw out all of ym breakfast. That's when I realized that my another nightmare has just started...

After throwing out everything that's in my stomach, I felt weak, no energy, no appetite and my head was swirling! My granny and dad bought me to the doctor nearby and he told me these are the side effects of the steroids I consumed for the past few days! Due to this, my stomach was bloating, I've lost all of my appetite to eat and drink not forgetting to mention that I can't take cold drinks and fruit juices!!!! I CAN'T EAT FOR CNY!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So my medication num2 is....don't over eat for the next 24 hours....damn......there goes my CNY....stomach bloating, uneasy stomach, etc etc....crap crap crap!!!!!

Life is meaningless when you don't have the health to enjoy it!!!