The Tale of 'THE SUPER STICKY CICAK'!!!

Hi! Today I would like to share with you all a story about a CICAK!

I went for a church meeting last night. While trying to close my house gate, I saw this medium size cicak on my side mirror. All I hoped at that time was for it to disappear as soon as possible. To my disappointment, it didn't even bulged a bit! Since that it didn't went into my car, I just drove and hope for it to be BLOWN away by my speed!

As I was driving on this very straight road (my speed was like 80kph or more), I saw that my side mirror still have this CICAK!!!! To my surprise, it was like steadily nailed to my mirror and I could see the speed of the wind around it! Yet, it didn't managed to be blown away! So, this CICAK had caught my attention throughout my driving. I was planning in my mind to take down this heroic CICAK and post it in my blog!

Sure enough, I stopped at this traffic light near Malacca Hospital. With good camera skills (ehem...!) I took down a few pictures of it. As you can see...The CICAK is still standing! From my house till here!! Amazing huh!!!!

Another view of the CICAK!

After taking these photos I no longer paid much attention to it because the road was getting dark and I had to pay full attention on the road. After reaching my friend's house, I totally forgotten about its existence and I guess it just went off by its own...or....being blown away perhaps???? haha, I seriously don't know! All I know is that I was amazed by its stickiness on my side mirror and had accompanied me throughout my journey!

Thx 'Super-sticky-CICAK'!!!!!!

A little moment for myself

Cheng Heights from the poolside view

I bet it has been ages since I posted my last post!

2day I went to Cheng Heights to play badminton with my bro and frens as usual. 4-6pm, every Sunday, never fail!

I was very disturbed by certain relationship issues (be it friendship, love, work or family) after mass. I was constantly thinking back of how I get myself involved into this. 'What IF I did like him? What IF I did something to hurt him bak?? What IF he doesn't want me as his fren anymore! What IF my attitude affects my working performance? What IF my miseries will never fade and I'm being left to die alone in agony??? What IF, WHAT IF WHAT IF!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

AAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At half way of the match, I couldn't hold it any longer. I went up to the swimming pool floor to spend sometime to calm myself down. It has been ages since I actually spend time for myself. Being alone at the attic, I had the whole place for myself , except there were a few ppl swimming, bt they weren't that noisy, so i can still had my own private space.

At the attic, I spent a long time thinking back how did all of these problems started! It started from a very wrong interpretation of my super-smart mind! 'Guys treating me good/ a bit close with me= have feelings towards me'! Oh gosh....there goes my friendship ever since! We used to be good frens...n because of this very small (or BIG) misunderstanding, I've traded my friendship to dooms day! I've been constantly blaming myself ever since that day I had feelings towards this person...my life has changes (I wasn't as happy as before, I hated by the sight of that person and sometimes the people around him!) Why...oh why did such a wonderful friendship has ended in such a state!!!!! It's my fault, MY FAULT!!!!!!!

I shouldn't had like him!!! I should have treated him as my Buddy or what so ever!!!! Bt WHY did I put feelings into it!!!! Argh!!!!! I hate myself!!!!!!!

Now (unfortunately the cat get out of the bag), we both are like swore enemies! When times are good, we talk, joke and laugh! When times are bad (which happens a lot), we ignore each other, turn one blank eye or roll eyes at each other...the worst was bickering at each other! Sighs~ such an ending....it breaks me heart....It breaks me because I've sent my friendship into the hounds of hell!!!!! And the worst part is we can never be the same as we were b4 anymore!!!! Sob....sob....I can cry and cry....to mourn for this broken relationship, bt wat's the purpose??? What has happened has happen! We can't change anything of it!!!!!

To think of this transition...from 2 lovely friends that used to joke around, feeling happy at each other's presence, honest, open, shared each others feelings and thoughts, filling each other up in the latest outings...making sure none of us miss out.... UNTIL NOW, gloating at the presence of each other, ignoring each other, making sure that we both won't know what the other is doing, making sure that we for sure will miss out each other's outing, doubt, hate, not willing to talk to each other...etc....etc.......

Why??? Why has my friendship took such a nasty turn????? Why.....I can only do is cry...crying over spilt milk! Sigh~ my friends have told me not to even bother of this relationship anymore...Bt I remembered 'Friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them'....I used to adore this song, how true the lyrics seems to be. Bt now, I detest this song! This song was sung at the beginning of this friendship, bt now....this song doesn't seem to mean anything to anyone of us anymore.

God, what should I do with this friendship???? I wanna keep this friendship, bt it seems none of us are willing to co-operate and the environment is forbidding us to do so....If it's Ur will to want us to end this friendship Oh Lord...Pls do it in a nice way. I don wanna be haunted by the thought tat I'm the one ruined this friendship anymore! I'm so tired....so heavily burdened....and lost! In my down times...I don even feel like keeping this friendship anymore! I'm sick and tired Oh Lord, Please help me~!

The thing that hurts the most...........IS LOSING A FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!

Learn from my mistake readers, never fall in love with your close friend!