Broken, yet fixed

I am broken, yet fixed! I have lost my way while trying to serve You. I seek fame and glory while all You wanted from me was just a sincere heart. A heart of kindness, love, humble and generous. I have failed....I have totally been blinded from all fame and glory. His righteousness saw my weakness and decided to pull me back to the right path.

I have gone astray while serving him. Why Lord have I become another person which I don't even know? Have I deceived myself? Have I deceived You???? I once longed to serve You whole heartedly without asking for reward and cost. Now, I started to become so selfish that I felt I am becoming more and more evil. I have lost Oh Lord....forgive me....for I don't know what have I done. I have lost all my love, humble, kindness and generosity....and now...I have nothing!!! I have lost the will to serve You....I am broken....felt like I am now in pieces....But, I knew if I wasn't into pieces....I will never see the scary self of mine....Now that I am aware of it....I felt afraid. I am afraid that You will abandon me and left me alone in pieces....Please don't let me die Oh Lord!!! I still want to serve You!!!! Tell me how???How can I get well again????When??? I have nothing left already!!!!

The pieces are broken, yet fixed!

A song of mine during times of despair

I was lost, despair, weak and don't know which way to go. Just when I thought of giving up all the talents that God has given me in serving him, I noticed I was wrong! He wanted me to see my weakness in me before I fall deeper into sin! Therefore, he sent me Rachel (my best friend) to help me to wake me up from my dreams and saved me!!!

This song was sung by Carrie Underwood in the Idols Gives Back last week. After hearing this song, I felt so touched by God's love in my life. How He had wanted to just stand by me in my daily lives and prevent me from falling-falling into deep sin. Thank you Lord. I praise Your most holy name with this song-'I'll Stand By You'.

Imagine that God is speaking to us through this song...it makes the whole song alive!!! Alleluia!!!

Oh, why you look so sad,
Tears are in your eyes,
Come on and come to me now.

And don't be ashamed to cry,
Let me see you through,
'Cause I've seen the dark side too.

When the night falls on you,
You don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less.

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
Won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

So, if you're mad, get mad;
Don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.

And hey,
What you got to hide?
I get angry too,
Well, I'm a lot like you.

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along,
'Cause even if you're wrong,

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
Won't let nobody hurt you.

I'll stand by you,
Take me in into your darkest hour,
And I'll never desert you,
I'll stand by you.

And when, when the night falls on you, baby,
You're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own.

'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
Won't let nobody hurt you.

I'll stand by you,
Take me in into your darkest hour,
And I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.
(repeat and fade)